I don’t feel special, honored or particularly grateful for much right now.
I feel used, stressed and broken.
Yes, please tell me that I should change my attitude.
Those who have seen me day in and day out know that I try to stay upbeat not dwell on my condition all that much. I work myself to the bone, hoping that it pays off.
Yet the bad just keeps on coming. I can’t change circumstances or the actions (or inaction) of others. And I am worn down from trying to put on a brave face.
I know this is cryptic and mean-spirited, but I am embittered, working on 3 hours of sleep and coming off a bad week/month/year.
Happy birthday to me.
8 thoughts on “I hate today”
I’ve been going through something similar. We work so hard to deal with this gracefully but then there are the times where everything piles up. It’s so frustrating.
You said that so much better than I could right now. There’s so much built-up frustration that I can barely function. And of course it snowballs/adds to stress/which then makes the MS worse.
First, you’re allowed.
Second, and perhaps this should have been first, Happy Birthday
don’t get to down… rest, treat yourself to something special…. screw the rest of them!
Happy Birthday but so sorry to hear it isn’t a good day for you. If it makes you feel any better I just unloaded my Sox tix on a friend b/c I’m too exhausted to go. I love the Sox and I hate MS for making me feel like crap!!!!!! Hang in there and do something special for you this weekend.
You are dealing with this more gracefully than you realize. I hope you don’t have to work this weekend and do something fun with Nick tonight.
I don’t comment much on your posts, but I really enjoy your writing. I am really sorry about your condition, but happy birthday nonetheless. Keep writing, you’re great at it.